Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Mr.Right #5

7agg M :*

S Qtr : Halla w '3ala...
Uff ! Why am I doing this all over again?
Me: Ahleeen .. Halla halla :)
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S Qtr: Sh5bariich .. Umm entyy Fayee 9aa7 ?
Me: tmam ,, ee ana fayee oo ent a7maad 9aa7 ?
S Qtr: eeeeee ! ana a7maaaad,, Tshrfnaaaa Fayeee, taaaw maaa nwr elmsn
Me: Bwjooodk .. 


We stayed up all night talking for what seemed like hours .. I must say I started falling for him, bas after a Month I got over it.. cause 7aseet shd3wa I like him ! mafe amal ! After I got over him .. b month kamel ! He came .. Oo galee shay mst7eel ansaaah..
That night dsheet elmsn .. at 1 am ..


S Qtr has just signed on.
*tring*
S qtr: Halla B fayeeee hallla b sheee5aat L bnaaat :p
Me: Hallla feeek !
S Qtr: a5bariiich?
Me: Tmaam, Ent shmswy?
S Qtr: 7alee min 7aliiich, Enzeen sm3ee Fayeee .. ana 7aab agoolch shay bs mb 3rf shloon.
Me: Gool 3ade.. Mafeeha shay..
S Qtr: Wallah Ya faye kil maktbt elyy abe agoolh ariiid ams7aah laa2nyy magdar aswee enter !
Me: ... Shisalfa a7maad?
S Qtr: Fayee ana a7bch .. wallah amoot feech .. bs a5af ajr7ch oo a7s galbch maminah thneen ! Oo b3deen akrah nfse * Signs out *
Ana en9dmt .. Ma3rft shswe ! So I just decided to let go of it, oo forget about it. I mean 3gb Ma i got over the stupid crush yjee ygoole che ! I was 7de mitrdida .. So I decided to talk to Sara, my best friend.
Me: Saroooooooo ! Ambaaaaaih bgoolch shay !!
Sara: Shfeech yal 5abla goole ! 5r3teenyy !!
Me: A7med ! He told me enah y7bny !
Sara: Min 9jccch !! Mab'3aaaaaaaaa !!!
Me: I knowwwwww rightt. :O!
Sara: ambaaaihhh fayooo 7de happy 7gch ! 
Me: I dunno if this is what I want anymore.
Sara: You do, i know you have been waiting for this for 2 months b3deen you lost hope. I told you to not loose hope and I was right..
Me: Maybeee..
Sara: Enzeen sm3ee ana 7dee t3bana its 3 am Oo i have to wake up early, lets talk tomorrow. *Signs out*


Maybe she's right.. I'll just sleep on it. I signed out and I went to bed... Not knowing what's waiting for me bkra.


I woke up the next day and it was saturday, So weekend. I didn't know what to do. So I had breakfast, watched TV till 3 PM. then I decided to go online.
I signed on msn.
*tring* *tring*
2 People talked to me.
Sara: Ambaaih fayoooo ! Lazm agoolch shay 3an hal 5ara A7med !
Me: Shnooo?


A7med: Faye, My ex- friend, not even GIRLFRIEND. just texted me ! La2naaah apparently your friend Sara talked to her?
Me:N3aaam?


Sara: MY friend ! Shei5a , 6l3t HIS EX ! T5ylee ! They DATED FOR 5 YEARS !! Oo b3deen he was cheating 3laiha ! Stay away from him Faye !
Me: minn 9jch ?


Me: Yeah well apparently I heard enaah shes your ex min 5 years !
A7med: What? 5 years ! Faye min 9ijch ymkin 7ta maknt bal'3 5 years ago !
Me: HAHAHAHAHAH ! OKAY THANKS FOR SHARING A7MED.


Sara: eeeee Fayeee eeee ! Now shes heartbroken, I know enty tabeen'h bs you're better off without him.
Me: Ahaaa..


A7med: Walla 9ij Faye ! You know enah I had a different girlfriend ! You know my ex, you know I dated her for 4 years... Shei5a is a liar.. ana bgoolich 89tha..
Me: Gool


Sara: 5laaa9 5leeh ! 
Me: Okay?


A7med: Shei5a, ana awal maklmtha 7beetha, Oo galt lee enjl3 ! Oo al7een yoom darat min sara eny 7beetch Ra7t sawat film ! Hathee Sara rfeejtch mawrhaa elaa elblawyyy entyy shtbeen feeha 5twly !
Me: Madree shgoolk..


Sara: Yalla Babe I have to go.
Me: Kay, bye .* Sara signs out *


A7med: Ohhh yeah and ana klmt sara rfeejtch,, oo ykoon Fee 3lmch g6aat kilshay 3leech enah enty tkrheen shei5a oo Madre aish !! Oo enccchhh entyyy elyy giltee 7ag sara kilshay
Me: N3AAM? SARA SWAT CHE ! She couldn't .. she's my best friend..
A7med: Not everyone is a true friend ... Especially not her ! tara madwer ela m9l7tha ooo t7b el7sshhh 7taa feech enti her best friend 7shaaat feech 3nd Shai5aa ! 5twlyy Fayoo wallah a7sn lich..


What a friend .. Minn that day me and Sara didn't talk as much, I didn't trust her, bs she trusted me. You know  why? La2nah everything she told me from Day 1 .. I never told a SOUL ! Bss she told everyone .. We did kind of grow apart ..

Monday, August 16, 2010

Mr.Right#4

This is for M&H.
And i know, i already posted. Bss walla they begged me to post again oo ma7beeet ardh'm :P




Rashed: 5liiich easyyy yubaa
Na9er: 5alooooha hahaha. Laaww shbknaa M7md madree shbtswee b3d.
Me: B3d .. Awl shay 3bdalla b3deen Rashed b3deen na9eer ! B3d al7een M7md? Do I look like your b**** that you can have fun with? THINK AGAIN ! Yalee mtst7oon ! Oo s3ood 7dk 67t min 3ainy ! Oo 3bdalla ! Latnshr r8mee !
Wallah enkm wa6yeen *Hangs up*
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Uff ! Wa6yeen 7d'hm ! I decided to just go to sleep 3shn ans'hm shway. After minutes of tossing around. I couldn't sleep. What was I thinking? They won't even let me sleep. 
All I did was sleep, go to school, come back home and they would annoy me for the whole day.
I became close friends with Hanoouf. A girl i thought I'd never be close with ever. Hanoouf you could say, became my partner in crime. She went through the same things I went through. Only for me, it was much much much worser.
She would call everyday and ask what happened with the " guys " I actually realised m3a elayam enah ana Mahmeet'ha all she wanted was a girl that could introduce her to the " guys " .. 
Day by day zadooo the amount of guys ely I talk to .. I felt like a b**** .. Bss I was too far in to let go now... I couldn't even If i wanted to. I knew a lot of guys by this time ! Na9er oo m7md oo rashed oo 3bdalla oo a7med oo s3ood oo fahad .. 


Until '' Hanoouf '' Ratted me out. She decided to come clean to her mother. Oo min elyy kaaal 5ara 6b3an? 6ab3aaaan ana. That dayy My mom woke up m39ba. She snatched my phone out of my hand and started looking at everything. I started cursing my self because I didn't delete a single thing.


Mom: walaaaaa ! yaa mswdt elwyaaah shmswyaaa !!  *Slaps* aaaah Yal kalbaaa * Grabs from hair * AAAA5 YAL 5AYSA ! MA3RFT ARBEECH *pushes down on the floor* SHNO HAAY ELI G3DA TSWEENAH ! *Smacks across the face*


Of course, my mother was aggressive. Also, she knew about mishkltee f my nose. My nose kaan 7daah weak, y3nee if you smack me 3la my nose 3la 6ool it bleeds, she used it to her advantage of course.
I just stood there, masweet shay. Just let her do what she had to do. The problem is, ana by this time i DIDN'T go that far. Ya3nee ma6l3t wya shbab, markbt syarat a7ad ! Maswett shayy klsh ! So I didn't think I deserved this. She was exaggerating. Bss Guess what? Even after she took everything. I continued talking to S3ood. Nothing stopped me. I talked to him for 3 more months. Oo after that 97eeet .. 7saait enah hoo elyy fa'97ny oo mswey kl shay oO tithkrt lamann galee klmee my friends 3de shfeeha ! oo gilt enaah mayst'hl Oo he's definitely NOT mr.right. So I just disappeared. Just like that. I disappeared. 


After that, I became very close with my cousin. We became like sisters. Kinaah klshay enswee'h together. They called us sisters. We were more than just sisters. Klish mafrgna b3'9 we stayed like that for 5 months.. 5 months till she asked me to do something I regret now. Something that changed my life again.. for 3 more years..
Something I wish I never did. She was using me. How naive could i be? Mshkltee 3zeeta ! Oo wth8t feeha ! So i thought she was looking out for me. Galat le to talk to my 2nd cousin. This guy kaan 7daaah m'3zlchy.. Oo wayed 9aye3. I told my best friend, Sara about it at that time. She told me that she could get his email and ashoof sh89tah y3ne. Tmeena 2 weeks oo majabat his email. 


It was 1:30 AM.
I signed on msn.
*tring*
Sara: OBEEEH FAYOOOO !! His email !!! s******_qtr@hotmail.com
faye: A'9eeefaa? I'm scared.. I don't wanna go through this all over again . I can't believe what you guys are getting me into.
Sara: Just go for it. I have to go noww, sorry *signs out*


I added him.. I stayed online for 5 minutes .. I got bored and Just as I was about to sign in ela .. s*******_qtr@hotmail.com signs on. 


S Qtr : Halla w '3ala...
Uff ! Why am I doing this all over again?
Me: Ahleeen .. Halla halla :)

Mr.Right#3

Dedicated to M eljameela :*
Long post 7gchh :*


Devil : "Uhh Halla Fayee Ana 3bdalla ! "
Me: Umm Mino 3bdalla !
Devil : Rfeej S3ood... baaas 7abeet agoolch shay..


What did he want to tell me? I was too scared to answer .. whats happening? Shfeeh s3ood ;(
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Me: Shtbe tgoole?
Devil: I can't discuss this on msn, how about I call you? Shno yur num..
I hesitated. Should i trust him? After all he's kind of a stranger. Oh what the heck.
Me: 5**46****
I saw my phone vibrating so I went and picked it up. It was a number that I didn't recognize, so akeed it's him.
I picked up.


Me: aloo..
3bdalla: Ahleen , Sm3y ana mb6wl 3leech . S3ood '3yr r8maaah Oo 9aar maydesh elmsn. 3shan che ms2al 3nch! Bs a7sn 5lch minah ..
me: Ahaa y3ne 7taa law '3yrr r8maaah my3rf ys2l..
3bdalla: 3laa Goltaah nsaaah r8mch ..
Me: ahaaa.. whatever..
3bdalla: Sm3ee ana aklmch b3deen *hangs up*


Whats up with s3ood ! Is that seriously his reason.. 
*tring* I ran to my laptop only to see 3bdalla talking to me.
Devil: hey You know Rashed al X akeed.
Me: Yeah, shfeeh.
Devil: Well I gave him your number, expect him to call.
Me: What? Why'd you do that ! Malek 7aag
*Devil signs out*
WHAT THE HELL ! SHFEEH HAY.
I saw my phone vibrating, I picked it up only to see another strange number. I answered.
Me: Aloo
..: Hallla hallla..
Me: 5eer fe shayy?
..: Laiish m5ysaaa ybaaa bs 7beeet ashoof etha r8mch 7elow wla laa2
Me: laaaa2 wallah oo ent Lhdrja mtfr'3?
..: 5laaa9 m3a elslama.
Me: Bye ! * Hangs up *
and I'm guessing that was Rashed.


I signed out of Msn and Lay on my bed for hours daydreaming. I realised something was vibrating. It was my phone. Guess who was calling? Rashed .. Wow, I bet he's gonna be annoying me everyday.


Me: Aloo ! Fee shay a7een shtbe?
Rashed.: Yubaa a39bch ! Bs 7beet enah n9eer friends y3ne tgdreen tgoolen oo bg3d et9lch kilyoom oo I won't take no for an answer.
*Hangs up*
Mafee a78aaaaaar minaah? Laa2 b3d ygoole I won't take no for an answer b3d ! Wy3aaa enshalla !!!
I decided to just sleep. I can't believe that 3bdalla yswe shay che ! Such a low person !
Just as I was about to sleep my phone was vibrating again ! Uff walla if it's rashed b9r5 3leeh ! El7maar ! G6ee3aa !  Another strange number ! oh my god ! Who is it now. 3bdalla ma5laah 7aad m36aaah ra88myyy !


Me: Umm Alo..?
S3ood: Hallllla bilyyy w7shtnyyy halla bilzeeen
Me: S3ood ?
S3oood: Yazeeeeenha mnccch, eee ee ana S3ood, mawlhty 3lay !
Me: Twk ts2l ! Twnyyy 6reeeet 3laa baaaalik ! Bdree 3laik
S3ood: Aseef yuubaaa wallah asef, wallah el'6roof
Me: Ay '6roof ely t5leek tswee che . 
S3ood: Ma3leena enty sh5brch
Me: s3ood ent leesh m6rsh le rfeejk 3bdalla ? Oo m5leeh yt9leee b33d? Ma5lh 7aaad m36aah r8meee
S3ood: 3A6AH MIN R8MCH ?!!?
Me: Rashed al X ! Oo bkraa madre min by36eeh b3d !
S3ood : Ma3leeh 3ade klmyy rb3ee shfeeha !
Me: NA3AM ! AKLM RB3K? SHINOOO ANA? SHH'CHYFNYY ENSHALLA *HANGS UP*


SHFEEH HAYY ! Ygoole 3dee tklmeen rb3ee la b3d shfeeha ! Shfeeh hatha est5f oo g3d !


That night I couldn't sleep klsh. A lot of strange numbers called me. Min r8m elaa r8m ! Min m7md ela rashed ela s3ood ela 3bdalla elaaaa A7meed ela madre mino !!
Hathaa L7gg Ynshrr r8mee ! 9ijjj enaah 78eeer oo w6y ! m3 enah S3ood is his best friend oo ydree enah y7bne ! Ooo laa elsheee5 s3ood Ygoole 3de?!


I got up the next day went to school tired kilah minhm ez3joony m5loony anam ! I couldn't wait to go back home, so when I did I slept 3la 6ool. I woke up 3la my phone vibrating. I saw yet another strange number


Me: Aloo * Sleepy voice *
..: Ohh nayma? Walah asef !
Me: minn ent?
..: Anaa Na9er al X 5laa9 aklmch b3deen *Hangs up*


Yklmnyy b3deen? 5eeeer enshalla min gal abe aklmh enshalla !
Shwayy ela achoof 3bdalla calling i picked it up.


3bdalla : Tara S3ood can't call you anymore.
Me: Whatever, min 3wydaaah mays2al a9lan t3wdt !
*Conference Call*
3bdalla: Hallla b s3ooooooooood , Kahyy Fayooo.
S3ood: Halla bil7ub..
Me: .. What is this supposed to be? Getting all your friends together to listen to you talking to me?
3bdalla: La7'6aaa 7baybeee *Hold*
*Conference call*
3bdalla: Halllaaa Rashoooood
Me: b3d Rashoood?
S3ood: Halla b7beeeeeb galbee
Rashed: Shfeech yuba Faye, 5lch easy
3bdalla: La7'6aaa * hold*
*Conference call*
3bdalla: Hallllllllla na9oooooor
Me: B3d na9eer ! Shrykk tshbkk elFreej kamel b3d ! wy3a enshalla !
S3ood : hahaha shfeech Fayoo hadeee 79aaal 5eeer
Rashed: 5liiich easyyy yubaa
Na9er: 5alooooha hahaha. Laaww shbknaa M7md madree shbtswee b3d.
Me: B3d .. Awl shay 3bdalla b3deen Rashed b3deen na9eer ! B3d al7een M7md? Do I look like your b**** that you can have fun with? THINK AGAIN ! Yalee mtst7oon ! Oo s3ood 7dk 67t min 3ainy ! Oo 3bdalla ! Latnshr r8mee !
Wallah enkm wa6yeen *Hangs up*



Thursday, August 12, 2010

Mr.Right #2

This is dedicated to M :*


Previously.
I then saw 3woosh's conversation pop up.
" Haaa '9fteeh ? ''
'' Yeahh ''
'' ;) A7laa ''
'' 7dee Scared 3waish !! " 
" Don't be , he loves you and you finally get to fall in love "
I smiled. I smiled at the thought of being in love.. but quickly erased it from my mind.I never thought that this day would be the day that my whole life changes for 4 years... 4 bad years..


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Uff ya raaaby shswee ! Wraaa6t nfseee ! Thoughts were running in my head.
What if he accepted and then what? Shb9eer? What am I doing ?! Is this right? It's definitely not right. Oh my gosh how much I regret this, I wish i could take what I did back.
*TRING*
OH MY GOSH HE SIGNED ON ! SHIT SHIT SHIT ! HE ACCEPTED ! OH MY GOD SHSWEEEEEE.
I saw his conversation pop up. I got so nervous
S: Hallla wallllah
Me: Umm.. Ahleeen :)
S: Sh5baaaaarch, Taw manwrr elmsn walla !
Me: Uhh, elnoor noork ! B5airrr,, oo ent shmswe?
S: Tmaaaaaaaaaam Daaam el7elo '9afnyyyyyy <3
Me: Uhh.. hhhhh :$
I got so nervous ma3rft shgool ! 7dee mtw'hga what the heck am I doing ! Shnoww hay !!
S: Shfeeech saktaa !
Me: Ha? La la mafee shay !
S: Taraaa ana min zman wdyyy feech ! bs entyy shklch mfhmtee a7bchhhh ya faayeee a7bcchhh !
Me: :$ Uhhh wallah ma3rf shgoolk
WHAT IS THIS !!! WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO SAY !!  but i must say .. 7de knt mtwl3a =/ 
S: Mbb lazem tgoolen shaaay ahaaaam shaaaay 5laaaa9 w9lt lch !
Me: Uhh, m3leeeh s3ood aklmk b3deen ana lazm aroo7 a7een ! Byee !
S: okayyy 5laaa9, take care, etha tbeen shay et9leely 55******
I signed out. I started staring at the screen. What the heck did I get myself into? Whatever, Maybe I should just sleep on it and then maybe I'll feel better... Hmmm.. Maybe ..
I went to bed and started thinking.. is this right? Should I be doing this? Can I tell anyone about this? Should I keep this to myself? Till I finally fell asleep.
I woke up to the sound of my alarm. Oh my god. I so don't wanna go to school. I climbed out of bed and went to the bathroom, did my business, had breakfast and went to school. On the way to school I was hesitating. Should I tell nouf or not? Maybe I should, I just need to talk to someone. 3laa 7a'6yyy Nouf was in school before me, and there was still time to talk to her.
" Nouffffff, babeee abe aklmch 3an shay ! 7dee ma3rf shswe ! "
" Shfeeech Fayoooo? Goolely ! "
I told her everything, I must say she was shocked. 
" Whatever give it a try "
Give it a try??? Why does everyone think this is a game.
I smiled anyways.
" Maybe I will "
I hated the fact that i had to see S3ood everyday. It gave me butterflies. I had doubts about it, but I did it anyways.


A Month Later
I was inlove with him. I guess? I don't know ! I was naive and I didn't know what I was doing. Bs e5tfa ! He's not calling me not texting me wla ydsh elmsn shisalfa ! I decided to sign on msn to see if he was on, just one last time. Maybe he is, but I didn't want to get my hopes up.
I noticed enaaah kan fe e'9fa!
Devil_*****@hotmail.com
I accepted. Curiosity. I just wanted to know who it was.


Devil : "Uhh Halla Fayee Ana 3bdalla ! "
Me: Umm Mino 3bdalla !
Devil : Rfeej S3ood... baaas 7abeet agoolch shay..


What did he want to tell me? I was too scared to answer .. whats happening? Shfeeh s3ood ;(

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Mr.Right #1

Well, I really wanted to share this after a few people knew about my blog.. bs I guess i'll just start & just hope then more people will read my blog, or some of you will tell your friends about me. Spread the word xx  Well, mab6wil 3laaikom xxx
I won't use real names, just for the sake of it.
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I felt someone behind me. I turned around only to see my best friend Nouf !
"I MISSED YOU YAL KALBAAAAAAA !! "
" OMGGGGGG !!! I MISSED YOU TOOOO ; ( ! '' i hugged her so hard.
It was the first day back to school, and I was so glad to be back and see my friends, I missed them all so much. So let me fill you guys in, I come from a very closeminded family of 2 brothers and 1 sister, I'm the youngest. My older brother, Fai9al is very closeminded and he's married with a 2 year old kid. I also have a sister who get married last year, Lana, she's not thaaat closeminded but she is kind of. Finally, my brother Khalifa.. Khalifa is very strange and hard to understand, well for me. He can be closeminded and openminded.. Well you can say mayr'9aaaa bil'3laa6.. I guess. Then theres me, I'm pretttyyyy openminded and I just want freedom, but after all i'm just a teenager, can you blame me?
I never thought about love .. well at least not then.
" OMGGG FAYEEEEE !! T3ALYY HERE LET ME HUGGG YOU !! "
" 3wooooooooooooooshe ! B3dd chbdeee ! " You see, all 3woosh wanted to do was fall in love ! I wasn't against it, I believe everything in the right time will happen. Her problem was, she wanted to hook everyone up. Okay, honestlyy nyaathaaa 9al7a in a way ! She just wanted everyone to be happy.
Just behind her was s3ood. S3ood, the guy that was always staring at me. I just don't get why he does that. I don't really understand ! Daymaan a7s enaah fe shay wrong f wyhee or something.
Ok, so I'm not arrogant or anything, but everyone would tell me enah i'm beautiful or pretty or whatnot. I have Green/greyish/Hazelish mixed wide eyes, small nose, hazelnut brown hair, and a round face. Everyone tells me a lot of guys wished they had me, but I really don't care. I was bint mitmska f 9alate oo mst7eel aswe shay wrong ! Mst7eel a5lee elshe6an yg9 3lay !

A few months later.
It was my birthday soon. I signed on Msn to see what my friends and everyone are up to. The minute i signed on i heard *tring* ( 9oot elmsn y3ne xD ) wla ashoof 3wooshes Convo
" Hallllllllla Fayooo "
" Halla 3waiiiiiish ! "
" Sh5bariiich :*? "
" Tmam Oo enty? "
" B5aiir, Inzain Sm3aaay Fayo, Bokra b36eech shay Fe elmdrsa okay ! "
" Okay 5la9 ! "


It was 11 PM and I was so tired so I just signed off and went to bed.

I woke up to the alarm sound ringing in my ears -.-'  I got out of bed, got dressed and went to school.
I arrived at school and went straight to 3waish.
" Fayeee, t3alyy bgoolch shay "
I followed her.
" ok, so you know s3ood 9aa7? You noticed akeed how kilah y6l3ch ! "
" Yeah I did, it's weird.. feeny shay ana? ''
'' La yal 5ablaa, he's head over heels 3laaich ! "
" Whaaat? ana ? " I was so confused.
'' Ee yal 5ablaa entaay ! "
" What, Why? "
" Mb mohim leesh, sm3ee add him and talk to him see how it goes. I know enaah 7daah mayt 3leech oo ybeech ! Wallah Shareech ya Faye Shareech ! I had someone talk to him oo 7dah mstans ybe yklmch ''
3woosh turned around and walked away.
'' Oh and Happy Early Birthday ;) '' and she continued walking away.
 I was so confused, i wasn't concentrating in any lesson. I just wanted to go home and see whats up with this guy !
Finally, It was time to go back home. I ran straight up to my room the minute I got home, locked the door and 3la 6ool R7t 7ag my laptop. I opened msn and added him. I knew I was going to regret this..
I then saw 3woosh's conversation pop up.
" Haaa '9fteeh ? ''
'' Yeahh ''
'' ;) A7laa ''
'' 7dee Scared 3waish !! " 
" Don't be , he loves you and you finally get to fall in love "
I smiled. I smiled at the thought of being in love.. but quickly erased it from my mind.I never thought that this day would be the day that my whole life changes for 4 years... 4 bad years..

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Hey .. Starting a story.

Heyy everyone :)
So, we're new here. We finally decided to start sharing a story.We'll be sharing a true story, we both went through.
So here we are, bs please nabeekum trdoon 3leena 3shn n3rf if we should write it or not?
The 2 stories we're gonna write will be quiet similar, except it happened to different people, and there are some different events. The stories will be about teenagers, naive teenagers, how they started their "journey" or you can say "adventure". One of them was living a lie. While one of them was everyones topic.
It'll be about how they stayed strong, how this all happened, how they survived, how they never let anyone pull them down.
xxx