Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Mr.Right #12

To M :** a7la surprise ha? :p
Maya: Fayeeeeee abeee aklmch abe agoolch shay mnn zman .. Bs mb 3rfa shloon
Faye: Shfeech? Tklmy.
Maya: Rinad told me about s3aaad ..
Faye : :/ ! What?


and with that .. we opened up to each other and we told each other everything and ever since that moment we were best friends <3
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Months passed by and I was with a7mad.. I was deeeplyyy and madlyyy inlove with him. I have never fallen in love. I was never crazy about a guy. I never got jealous. A7mad made me have all of those feelings. I went crazy for him, hearing his name I would be in my own world. He was everything. The air I breathed. Awal ma agoom afkr feyh .. He was my one and only a7mad .. A7mad 7abeeby .. 7yatei .. Roo7y .. galbi .. Aaaa5 Fdaiiitk ya A7mad :') A7bkkk wallah :( Ent knt a7la shay f 7yatei kilha :') W7shtny wayed :(

One day.. I was with a7mad and Shei5a .. Their both my 2nd cousins and as for them they are 3yal 3am. We're all from the same family. So we all carry the same last name .. They were standing infront of eachother and i was 5 inches away from them..

A7mad : Shei5o bgoolch .. tadreeen e5tyy o 5alty kilah ygoolon lei ent 7g Faye ent 7g fayee?
Shei5a: Obaih 27liiiiiiiifff???
A7mad : Wallllaaa *laughing* hahaha.
Shei5a : Fayoo sm3teeihh?
*Fayes phone falls on the floor and she picks it up * Haa? Shgaaal?
A7mad: a7saan 5aleehaa f 3alm a5rrr :P
Shei5a * winks* bgoolch b3deeinnn :P


So being me.. OF COURSE MA NSAAAITTT o in the car 7anait 3lyha lain galat lei !
Faye : Shei5aa w elyy yr7m waldeech gooleeei le 3ad yalla tkfeen :(
Of courseee, I know enah shai5aaa mat5sh 3lay shayyy bs I just had to use my puppyyy eyeeesss (A)
Shei5a: well lets put it this way your probably gonna end up with a7mad.
faye: WHAT?!!?
Shei5a: hahahahaha
I felt my cheeeks burninnng.


A7mad and I were happy for almost a year .. bs ya faaaar7aa matmaaaaat .. Kil wa7d raa7 f 6reejah and the relationship stopped.. A7mad and i did stay in touch .. we actually never lost that touch.. I still talk to him till this day.


I had a rebound relationship.. I didn't know that it was one at first. I was stupid.... 3bdel3zeez. Thats his name.
3bdel3zeez was one of those rich-I'm-the-shit-get-out-of-my-way type of guy. It was blind love. It only lasted a month and a half. He was a douchebag. He was the controlling type. Ybeeni yswei ely y3jbah. Kan yshk wayed .. Ldrjat enah it was annoying. If he knew that me and any guy were friends he would grab his phone and read our conversations. He was SICK.


It was summer and I was enjoying my self in France.
*6riiing* ( bbm sound )
...: Fayee 3bdel3zeez f elmstshfah 6aaa7 min el b6b6aa o jsmah kilaah r'9oo'9 O ydah enksrt..
I didn't believe him. 7rkat 3bdel3zeez. I went and deleted him off bbm. 
3 days later.. I got a text message from him.
3zooz: Knt atmnah mayjeei hal yoom bs 3la ra7tchhh fayee ..
Little did I know.. he was still in love with me and sometimes we texted. When we were in paris i was sharing the room with my 7 year old cousin fdait galbha .. O kanat wayed t3bana o maree'9a so she started snoring o magdrt argd la2nah mt3wda 3la el mkyf o a9wtah :( so I was texting 3bdel3zeez o g3dna nsoolf lain margdt.. O 7sait'h y7bny L7een .. So from that day I decided to stop texting him and just give him his space to get over me. 9ij bykrhnei la2nah am gonna start ignoring him, but its for the best 3bdel3zeez. Ana asfa :* adrei Tkrh'ny now.. bs it was for your own good.. 3asah an tkr'ho shay2n W hwa 5ayrn Lkm :')


Mean while my best friend Maya was deeply and madly in love with 5aleel :p Fdait galbchh mayooo :* a7bch 7bbbb mb 6bee3y wallaaa. I had a friend called Dalal.. she would always talk to me about 7beebha.. After 5 months .. he passed away. O yaa fdait'ha Maya shkthr t3thbt :') 3awraaat galbi :( m3a enah it was only 5 months .. bs aa5 ya Maya shgaad she falls for people so fast and so deeplyy.. Fdait 2lb 2lbkkk :$ Maya went on Facebook and saw this 
الله يرحمك يا خليل ..
الله يرحمك يا خليل .. 
الله يرحمك يا خليل .. 
الله يرحمك يا خليل .. 
Maya wasn't sure if it was him.. but that day he didnt talk to her kilsh.. :') so she decided to check.. she told me to call and check because she was too scared .. 
...:خليل توفى
توفى
توفى
And i had to tell Maya.. Ya allah ya Maya shgad 2ntei m3wrah galbi O mabi agoolch :') I dailed her number and told her ..
She closed the line immediately. She was depressed. broken. She was gone and I didn't know if she was going to come back... :( Fdaitch Maya wallah maloomch.. I would never wanna be in your place.. Bs Maybe it was good for you.. You never knew where you guys could've ended etha la7een ho 7aay.. allah yr7mah O y'3md roo7a elJanah..
Dalal was crying too.. she was depressed .. and I saw her status as allah yr7mk 5alel.. O ana est'3rbt .. 9ij eldnya 9'3eera...
That day i was talking to 5aleels best friend.. His namee was 5aleel too .. O maskeeen 3waaar galbyy :') g63nyyy :') 9aaay7neei .. Mat5yal nfsei F mkanah .. I felt sorry for him.. M7d ys2l 3nah .. O kan ygooly fdaitch ya faye :') 9ij 7baitch m7d ys2al bs shnswy allah kareem .. so from that day on 5aleel and I were friends .. and we talked a lot until we broke the ice between us.. until one day.. we both realized we had feelings for each other... Maaan, Don't I wish that day never came... aaa5 :(

Monday, January 3, 2011

Mr.Right #11.

Dedicated to M :***




Oh god..
Where am I?
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I sat on the floor and started crying .. what am I supposed to do?
Shei5a. I'll call Shei5a.
I dailed her number


Shei5a: Halla B Fayooo
Me: Sh*soob*ei5a*sob*
Shei5a:Faye :| Shfeech ?
Me: Shei5a*cries*cooo*breathes*come.. *crieS* pick me up :'(
Shei5a: Nfs elmkaaan?
Me: Ee shei5a eeeee :( hurry please *cries*
Shei5a: Okay 7beebti ana al7een yayah.




5 Minutes ela Shei5a was hurrying towards me.
I got into the car next to her


Shei5a: Faye shfeech?
Me: Please just drive I dont ever wanna talk about it.
Shei5a: 3la Ra7tch .. when you're ready to tell me gooly lee ..


The days passed by and I never told any one ..
I didn't want them to judge me.
I was scared..
So I just kept everything to myself..


Days ..
weeks..
and months ..
passed by and I haven't left the house.
I'm not sure I was ready to face the world.
Ely 9aar le mub shwaya ..




I put my headphones on and dozed off


I can be a freak
I can I can be a freak
everyday of every week.




G7aaa9t to the sound of my phone receiving a text message..
Nayef ..
He's been asking about me alot..


Nayef: Faye .. ana a7bch wayeed mita btfhmeeen ya bnt?


I didn't know what to say so I just went to bed .. I had school bkra ..
I woke up so tired for school ..
Got into my uniform .. Didn't have breakfast and headed to school .
the minute I got to school I saw maya f wyhee.


Maya: Fayeeeeee abeee aklmch abe agoolch shay mnn zman .. Bs mb 3rfa shloon
Faye: Shfeech? Tklmy.
Maya: Rinad told me about s3aaad ..
Faye : :/ ! What?


and with that .. we opened up to each other and we told each other everything and ever since that moment we were best friends <3